Another Progress Update

I’ve been struggling with writing for the last year or so — I don’t think anyone would be surprised that the amount of actual writing I’ve done since early 2016 has been negligible. I went back to graduate school — a more demanding program than my last go around. My health has been rough, my family obligations have increased (despite not having kids of my own somehow). And I’ve just lost the creative juice. I’ve said this before, but it’s become clear to me over the last month that it’s not just the creative mojo I’ve lost, but the actual love of writing.

I don’t know what to do about that. I have the urge to write until I open up the screen. I’ll get through a few scenes (there is actual progress that’s been made with Bittersweet), but I haven’t had that breakthrough moment. When I was writing A Few Words Too Many in early 2014, I wrote that entire story in about a month. It just poured out of me. I stayed up late, I wrote several chapters a day. I wrote every day — it was a struggle to stop writing to do every day things like my actual graduate work and go out with friends. The Best Thing and All We Are came in more fits and starts, but there were days like that for both of those stories, and of course the first two seasons of Damaged–once I figured out what I was doing with that story, it just flowed in about six months.

I’ve lost that somewhere. And it breaks my heart. I don’t know where it went. I still think about unfinished works every day, I plan it in my head. I write entire scenes while I’m supposed to be driving or working. And then I sit down to actually create what I’ve been seeing, and it just falls apart on the page. Maybe I’m being too hard on my self, maybe I literally just have to force myself to write. I don’t know. I’m not giving up.

I sat down this morning to work on Damaged, Season 3, and I’m ripping it apart for the fourth time.  I’ve been having trouble with it because there are some stories in there I’m not excited about and that hasn’t helped. I’m going to spend most of today on it — apart from getting ready a short shift at work. I’m going to keep writing. I can’t promise what or when I’ll be posting new content again.

But I’ll keep trying. I have this memory of the day I wrote If I Don’t Try With You in about three hours–it has to be honestly the best three hour period of my writing career. And that just poured out of me. I think it shows in how good it is (I’m not being modest–I actually cried while writing it, I love that story so much.) I know I’m capable of this kind of writing. I just have to find it again.

I love you guys for sticking around — as always, I am here. I’ll keep trying if you’ll keep waiting.


  • Take you time I can wait until you are ready, your health is very important and I know how hard Grad school is. Just take care of yourself and things will come to you with God’s help and love.

    According to Shelly Samuel on June 6, 2017
  • I’m sure most of us will keep waiting. I have to wonder though . . . if you aren’t being too hard on yourself. What if you stop trying to force progress on existing stories and just start writing again . . . whatever it is that comes to mind?. One shots? Liason or entirely brand new characters? Or go back to continuing some of the stories you started with the flash fiction series, which are lighter and may require less discipline to make them “true to the characters” we know from GH?

    Mostly – go easy on yourself. If you make it something you have to do, you won’t find the love of it again. If you let it be something you get to do . . . now that you have time, you will.

    Also – if the blank screen is what’s doing you in . . . consider recording your thoughts and just talking out what you are envisioning in your mind while you drive or walk. Then, transcribe that and see where you get.

    According to livingliason on June 6, 2017
  • I agree with livingliason. write when you fee like it and don’t push it. We love your stories, and since we have no talent or imagination we live through others. If you try to hard it isn’t going to work, you have to love and want it for it to come out right. Take care we will be glad when you are back. GH is a bust as far as Liason is concerned so take us places in your imagination.

    According to leasmom on June 6, 2017
  • of course we’ll b waiting
    really let sink in what @livingliason wrote
    also try long hand
    write down a sentence or phrase
    and then play with it
    like above said,
    u r being too hard on urself
    it’s not a race
    kick back, grab a drink
    enjoy the summer

    According to vicki on June 12, 2017
  • Hey,

    We love you too so know we’re still waiting–and keep trying!

    All the best,

    According to EternalLiason on June 12, 2017